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I was wondering if anyone else suffers from Depression too.

I myself have suffered it for a number of years and it can get really bad at times (like today)
Warhammer helps lift my mood alittle, its usualy very accepting for a dark future lol and talking with other players is fun and uplifting at times too.

One of the reasons i like this site, alot more upbeat than places like facebook where its all gloom.
Somtimes when i get down i bring out my eldar force and start painting, its a great distraction.

Anyone else the same?

Mine is generally seasonal. Usually the best cure I've found for it is to keep myself so preoccupied with stuff that I don't have time to wallow in my own crapulence. Painting and modelling is a good means to that end. It's cheaper than scotch and vicodin, and leaves me slightly less hazy the next day.

Mine comes and goes from time to time, I distract from it with music. Easier than painting as I don't always have the time for it and would rather not paint while like that as I think it would come out crappy.

Depends on my meds....and the time I take them...wait...thats anxiety attacks

I also listen to very angry music very loud lol maybe trying to drown out my own thoughts. Talking to others online is also good for it.

Also i try to keep away from shops and such as when i get depressed i spend alot of money as a distraction, hey maybe then ill be able to pay gamesworkshop prices without crying for the loss lol

also n0t_u that squid head thing is very..disturbing lol

Mine come in tidal waves; they build up and up and then hit and flood my mind, then it's just a matter of waiting for the water to receed and building up against the inevitable next one.

The NHS has been entirely unhelpful, to say the least. They don't want to prescribe medication (despite the fact that previous attempts at therapy without it have failed miserably) and i'm currently awaiting a reply from the hospital about another course of therapy they're going to dump me on; it's nearing the end of the 3-month waiting period my GP said there'd be, where you will get a reply within those 3-months, so i'm preparing to boot them up the arse if the 3 months passes without a word.

i know what you mean it can hit me hard on days, its always there but somtimes not as bad. When it hits i literally have to fight to keep my head up, talking constantly online, constant music and maybe going outside is the best i can do.

It makes me quite quezy and puts me off food for days. Damn the power of the mind.

I tend to go more towards classical, a tiny bit of neo-classical dark wave, electronic and just plain rock for it.
Angry I tend to stay away from normally anyway.

AtomicEngineer wrote:also n0t_u that squid head thing is very..disturbing lol

It's only Tako Luka, sort of a caricature as the normal's item is tuna.
The video the gif is from is pretty damn disturbing though.

I generally totter on the precipice every second of my existence. One slip and I'd probably fall into a rut of depression I might never escape from.

So I draw, and write, and read, and listen to music, and play games, and hang out with friends, and post on internet forums.

But alone, in the dark... damn, every second my mind is unoccupied is another second closer to that great plunge.

Well atleast we all know what each others going through lol i just keep nodding to everyones posts going yep, it really does suck :/

Strange then that we like the dark depressing future or past of wargaming isnt it. Maybe its because everyones depressing or depressed there lol we would fit right in ^_^

Question is what are you depress about? If its within your zone of control then aye...but if its not within your zone...why worry? Possible guilt trip? Depends on how you view your guilt. Is it within or outside your zone. I don not feel guilty for what I have done in Afghanistan and only a select few here can top what I done. Its a perception you have.....just that the strength of the perception is either going to feed into the depression or its going to rationalize it.

Aye thats true, problem is it my own fault im doing somthing i have no interest in doing, its not where i wanted to be in life but i dont see anyway of changing it. I just dont have the money yet.

Im at univeristy but i never really wanted it, i suffered from depression since school and this education isnt helping it.
I just want to do somthings in life for myself for a change. But to do that you need money and confidence, and my depression stops me from doing alot of things that would need to be done to get money and confidence. Things like Anxiety set in and i panic. Im pretty much usless on my own but i want to be confident and strong enough to make my own path in life, i just dont know how to do that.

I am my own worst enemy somtimes i think my mind hates me.

Jihadin wrote:Question is what are you depress about? If its within your zone of control then aye...but if its not within your zone...why worry? Possible guilt trip? Depends on how you view your guilt. Is it within or outside your zone. I don not feel guilty for what I have done in Afghanistan and only a select few here can top what I done. Its a perception you have.....just that the strength of the perception is either going to feed into the depression or its going to rationalize it.

Clinical depression isn't being sad about something; you can't just will it away.

Its a "set back" thats all it is.

No idea what your major is or university but I'm going to wing this.
Besides the school work....(its not the school load is it?)

Actually I'm going to be careful and ask what major Atomic.....I do not want to give a typical infantry reply

Clinical depression isn't being sad about something; you can't just will it away.

no you can't but if you feed into it without putting a brake onto it then its game over and its a slow build back up

Its not the amount of work

And im studying computer animation effects. Though i feel im more a get out into into the world, see it and live it kind person. But of course how can i know that ive never even left my city before (except on holiday 8 years ago)

Im stuck in a boring life, wasting it away but am not confident enough to go out into the world on my own.

So you already built a prison around yourself?

Ahtman before we go any further on my issues of "sad"..

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Don't have it. Everyone else in my family does. I don't know. I hope I don't get it when I'm older.

I'm depressed.

I'm on anti-depressants; they helped for awhile, but now I'm depressed again.

Well recently i was on facebook, when sombody did a whole paragraph of insulting me basically saying i didnt deserve to be at university. Now iva always been nice to everyone so this came out of the blue.

I unadded them and heard later that they had been ranting about me doing so.

So i talk to a apparent friend online about stuff, my life and my depression. Turns out hes been sitting at that other guys comp all the time.

I just dont know what to think anymore.

Im so angry at this..

Hugs for everybody!

Let it go bro let it go.
Drive on
wait.....your at a University.....I've never had a college life. Hows the night life for a young male there? Even though I'm 41 I'm still young. Hell I get carded all the time

Anyone can get depression.

Super models, wargamers, porn stars, computer gamers, strippers, Geek Squad technicians, hookers, and even chimney sweeps.

If you're depressed and in school, go see a school counselor. Or, go to a party and get laid.

kronk wrote:Anyone can get depression.

Super models, wargamers, porn stars, computer gamers, strippers, Geek Squad technicians, hookers, and even chimney sweeps.

If you're depressed and in school, go see a school counselor. Or, go to a party and get laid.

Chimney sweeps can't get depression. You take that back!

Seems to be a lot of depression going around these days. Suppose there is a lot to be depressed about.

I say, anything that helps lift your mood in anyway must be a good thing. I don't really know much about the details of depression to say anything more than that.

Thats another thing i study there but i have to live away, so i dont get to go to the partys or nights out, i dont get to hang around, as i have to catch bus to get home. And the place is dangerous at night.

I just wish i could get away from it all, go someplace. But i just dont know how.

One thing ive learnt about life, the whole if your good, keep out the way and do your work it will pay off thing is totally wrong. If life wants to hate you your going to get its hate. Im 20 yet i feel 100 already.

Well...its like this...Your a Dean...so you need to find a sam....with a soul mind you....or if your Sam you need to find a Dean...one that doesn't say "Does this taco taste funny to you?"

AtomicEngineer wrote:One thing ive learnt about life, the whole if your good, keep out the way and do your work it will pay off thing is totally wrong. If life wants to hate you your going to get its hate. Im 20 yet i feel 100 already.

Yup. That's the second hardest lesson to learn in life. You're well on your way.

The hardest lesson? How you come to terms with the above.

I need a new life, new place, new routine. Ive done this walk for 20 years, same city, same road, same day over and over.

Does anyone know how i would go about changing my whole life lol damn....still needs money, ugh i dont want to spend longer here.

true daedalus true.

You didn't move away for university?

That's probably where you went wrong...

You're 20. Can't you buy booze in the UK at 18?

Get out of the house once a week and have dinner with a friend, or go have a drink with a buddy.

You're old enough to get out and about. Do something to occupy your mind and time. A weekend job would be smart. Puts money in your pocket. Makes you less dependent on mama for buying things, you know?

I'm just saying, find a way to get out there.

If you're really depressed, then you should go see a school counselor or something.